Day 52

No great pictures today.  I love this little outfit and headband.  She looks so sweet and cute in it.  I love dressing her up.  Grandma was right when she said she was my live baby doll.  So fun!

Day 54

I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately and its more my fault than little girls.  Catrina and I opened up a shop on Facebook and I've been consumed with trying to get it up and running.  Well it caught up with me today.  I'm starting to feel sick and my right eye is twitching.  So when Susana fell asleep on me at 6pm on me we both took a nap.  It was heavenly.  She kept me nice and warm.  I do love that she is snugly.

Day 53

We don't have a great track record for getting to school on time since this cutie was born.  She sure was smiling after her morning feeding.  Alexis sat by her in the car and I guess from what Alexis kept saying she smiled all the way to school.She Was smiley most Of The Day.  I almost cought A Great Smile In Her Outfit From Aunt Katie But She Got Her hand In The Way.  You Can Tell By Her Eyes Though How Big Her smile was.

Day 51

Sniff, sniff I started boxing up some of the newborn clothes.  I shouldn't be too sad because it means time for fun new clothes but my newborn is truly now an infant.  We are also now in the second half of this 100 day journaling adventure.  Today we got a giant package from Grandma Gayle.  Susana now has a bigger bath tub than the sink and a nice big pack of diapers.  Thank you Grandma!  James was so excited about the boxes he pushed the huge box after me until I opened it.  When I tried to leave the tub in its package he got a butter knife and succeeded in opening it on his own (oh boy, I'm in trouble now!)  He was so ready to help give Susana a bath he went and got soap.  Problem was Susana was sleeping.  She did end up in her new tubby tonight but after James went to bed because she pooped in her swing again and got it all over her jammies. 

Day 50

7 weeks- wow!  We can't imagine life without her.  Tonight as we started family home evening James helped Susana, him, and myself take a selfie.  James loves to take pictures!

Day 49

Time sure flies.  I was told today at church Susana defiantly doesn't look like a new born any more.  Oh time please slow down. 
We all love to snuggle this little girl.  Daddy loves to snuggle his little princess even when he is trying to do homework.  Susana was crying and I suddenly heard her stop and Taylor reading his marketing class book to her.  When I went to look the picture is what I found.  I find it to be extremely sweet.

Day 47

These little ones bring such joy to my life.  I am so grateful for each of them.  Susana has been full of big beautiful smiles for all of us and I just can't get enough of them.  I tried taking a picture with all four of my babies but every picture I took with James he was just a blur of movement in the picture (totally accurate for what he is like right now even when he watches a show on TV he is moving playing with his car while he watches)

Day 48

We've had a great day with family today.  Travis and Jessica came up from Utah.  James has had so much fun with Lochslyn.  When we left the library and he saw her he said, 'there's my Lochslyn.' And blew her a kiss.  We all went out to dinner and Tammi's family joined us. Susana has fallen into a pooping every three days pattern so I anticipated today was a poop day and planned her outfit around that fact.  She wore a yellow onesie to help hide the explosion and there was one.  While Tammi was holding her she pooped.  It went up her back and down one of her legs.  Hoping she will sleep better tonight after that.

Day 46

Oh how I love when she looks at me and smiles!  I took these pictures while we were hanging out in the van during Alexis dance class.  I'm glad she was so happy during the day today, we even went up to BYUI with daddy for the career fair, because tonight she clearly doesn't feel good.  Alexis has been complaining her tummy hurts and has bubbles well Susana does too.  My poor babies. : (

Day 45

Oh I wish I had a picture of todays explosion.  It was massive!  Only pooping every two or three days means giant explosions.  I don't know why the change in bowel movements but its made this past week interesting to say the least.  Happy non messy note I started my own online business selling bows.  Susana has been a good sport modeling for me. ; )

Day 44

Its good to be home!  Susana spent a lot of time snuggling with Daddy today.

Day 43

Driving home was a little harder than driving to Nevada but still for being so little she did great!

Day 42

I have no pictures of my sweet baby today just the evidence that she is here.  She did this to my skirt.  She pooped in my lap and it pored out the back of her diaper onto my skirt. All I could do was laugh with my friend.

We had a wonderful day today in Henderson going to church and visiting friends.  Susana so far has been an excellent travel companion.

Day 41

We traveled for the first time with Susana today.  Grandpa was SO excited to meet Susana he came skipping out of the house to see her!  He was all smiles and so was she.  She is our family's new Suzzy.  I wish very much Grandma Tucker could have held her too.

Susana did great driving to Henderson.  She slept almost the entire time!

Grandpa texted me once we got here this:
Thanks so much for for staying last night. Sorry I wasn't up when you left. It was wonderful being with Susana,and the rest of you. It was the happiest I've felt in a long time. Thanks. Love Dad
P.S. When I was holding Susana,It felt like Mom was holding her with me. It was a sweet peaceful feeling, that lingered until I drifted off to sleep. Love Dad

Day 40

There is something I just love about sleeping babies.  I love seeing any of my children sleep.  With my older girls it reminds me of their innocence and their best qualities.  James is still little enough that I see my little buddy.  They look like little angels. 

The pictures of James is from yesterday.  He fell asleep when we picked Alexis up from dance.  When we got home I had him walk into the house.  He came in crying and I found him asleep like that in the doorway of the study/nursery.

Day 39

I love that I am getting smiles now everyday although they are hard to catch on camera.  Susana also is starting to fuss just to get you to look at her.  I love how she looks at me.  It melts my heart every time.

Not so cute news tonight she had a blow out that went all down her tights.  Gross!  It called for bath time.

Day 38

Today was a hang out at home day while mommy sets up a business page to sell bows and things on with Aunt Catrina.  Susana was kind enough to model a new headband.  We think the top picture is a glimsp of attitude to come one day.

Day 37

Today was the last visit from our midwife Valerie Hall.  It feels like I'm closing a very good chapter in my life.  I loved everything about homebased midwifery.  It blessed everyone in our home.  Ariana is no longer afraid of birth like she was prior to this.  She says now rather than 'I'm scared to have a baby, I don't think I want to', 'I'll have a baby if I can have it at home and you can be there.'  Not for several years hopefully and life and age will probably change her opinion several times.  I'm glad for now witnessing Susana's birth has brought some knowledge and comfort to that subject.  I know my next chapter will be wonderful as well but it is a little sad to close the old one.  Susana had big smiles for Valerie today.  She weighed 9lb 14oz.  So grateful to have met Valerie, get to know her, have her help my beautiful baby girl come calmly and safely into the world.

Day 36

Five weeks.  Its Valentine week so I'm trying to have Susana wear all her clothes with hearts on them this week.  Tonight when she had her awake fussy time a pacifier actually helped her be happy for a couple hours.  At bed time tonight I got to year a three voice symphony crying/screaming for Mommy.  The voices in this very loud composition were Susana crying to be held, James scream crying Mommy, and Ariana screaming Mommy.  Susana quieted first (or cut off in musical terms).  The other two continued for a long time.  It was frustrating and comical.  James had climbed out of his bed for the first time last night so bed time was rough because he 'didn't want to sleep' he cutest said through crying breaths at one point 'no tanks Mommy, no tanks'.  Ariana was screaming for just plain ridiculous reasons.  She needed to set her alarm and couldn't because she was in bed and because she was tucked couldn't turn her light on.  It should be noted she knows how to set her alarm on her own, has a light on the table by her bed and is almost 9 and can walk across the room to turn the big light on just fine.  She is also not afraid of the dark currently.  It was ridiculous!  

In fun Susana development: after dinner tonight Susana had huge smiles for me.  I love smiley babies!

Day 35

I could just eat this cute little girl up!  It was a beautiful day here so we went for a sunset walk.  Even though baby girl promptly fell asleep I couldn't put the car seat cover over her completely because I wanted to see her beautiful peaceful face as we walked. 

Today Susana has been really gassy and consequently has spit up a ton!  No more soda for Mommy because I think that's what I have been having that is making her gas worse.

Day 34

Susana has an awake grumpy time from about 11-1am but after that she sleeps really well.  Often its with me holding her but she stays asleep for 4-6 hours.  So happy for new Mommy.

Day 33

So sad we lost one of the booties her Aunt Catrina made. Inside was a tiny pair of socks I got before I had Alexis.  So now one of those is gone too. Also sad its time to start putting the newborn size clothes away.  You can see in today's picture that the sleeves and pants are getting to short.

Day 32

ONE MONTH!!!  My beautiful girl is one month.  She is still a very happy little girl.  She is starting to smile, loves being held and snuggled (especially at night), she loves the fishy mobile and lights in the big swing and will cry when they turn off.  She also continues to poop on most of her outfits regardless of the diaper type.  Tonight she pooped 5 times in an hour and a half.  Her forth time she blew out the sides and back.  Her big sisters always want to hold her.  James asks where she is if I'm not holding her.  He says she is too big for him to hold but he likes to have her lay by him while he plays and he tries to show her his toys.  We love her and already can't imagine our family without her.

Day 31

Susana was really happy until about 10PM today then she was angry and grumpy.  Tonight was the first time I actually had to get out of bed and stand up with her to help her calm down.  The picture is her sitting with me while I shop online.

Day 30

Happy February!  (well second day of February) Little miss wore her first Valentine outfit today.  It was a little big but still fun. I thought with how big she was when she was born that she would be out of newborn clothes by now but 0-3 month clothes are still really big on her and newborn clothes are fitting really well.

Day 29

4 weeks old.  I don't know how much longer we're going to be able to do bath time in the sink.  Susana likes bath time.

Day 28

Little one has lots of bubbles in her tummy today.  I think its my fault from what I've been eating.  She has been spitting up more today than usual as well.  Tonight she will only sleep if held (like most nights) but it is taking a long time for her to go to sleep deep enough for me to lay down.  I keep getting big beautiful blue eyes looking up at me.

Day 27

Where did January go?  Its the last day already.  Susana is starting to voluntarily smile.  So cute and precious!  Also in the gross factor today she threw up when I put just a little too much pressure on her tummy about 15 minutes after eating. Milk came streaming out both her nose and mouth.  Three fountains at once.  So gross!  She heaved twice like that.  At least it happened in the bathroom so clean up was easy.